Black-listed

my my.. someone just told me that i was blacklisted in someone else's life.

held top few for negative impression?

i've got a big hunch it's my 1% sense of humour.

nah, it's more than just that.



well. that's life you see. you can't have everybody liking or loving you the way you are all the time.

if you think that i'm nice, thank you for the compliment.

if you think that i'm not, thank you still, for your utmost honesty. it's very much appreciated.

personally, i am acceptive of everyone. hey, who am i, to judge one's character?

i believe everyone's unique, and i love them because of this one thing.

yes, flaws can be seen here and there, but i'll do what i can as a friend to take away that mismatch that was never meant to be there.

you're beautiful, and you shouldn't be making ugly things a part of you.



sometimes, i do wonder who i am in people's lives.

the saddest thing of course, is to be blacklisted subtlely by someone you would least expect.

but yet again, that is life.

yet another beautiful thing would be that despite how ugly you are on the inside, someone comes up to you and says: " I don't like you; I love you."

that, is a love so true.

i do feel this way very strongly for some people.

or at least i once did.

time and time again.

though i'm forever meant to be far away, just watching from a distance, i will admire the scenery so warm and sweet.



Hey, don't put yourself so low in front of others when you have no reason to do so haha.

if your life is blessed and fortunate, speak of it. your adventures are more worth listening than baseless demeaning.

then what about me? um.. frankly i'm not very fortunate at this point of time (actually it has always been this way since P3 huh)

is that an understatement? i'm not so sure. but most assuredly, i am fighting the battle to find at least one good thing to thank Daddy God for everyday.



lol. talking about this topic, i think it's best not to put my name down on any kind of lists..

i'll literally bleach it black.

okok that was so not funny.



trying to be a better man each day.

i don't know what to hope for, but won't it be nice if someone told you simply so, that he/she loves you?

beautiful things i'm looking at everyday.



thanks, to all who said that they do, whether now, or back then.

at least i know, that i was once loved.