Smile.

It's a great sunny day today.

Sadly i've missed it; gotta get some stuff at Adidas, and pal needs rest very badly.

New trunks are out.. Black with 3 white stripes! i'm so getting it.

After that gotta get to work too.

All the dumb school projects also.

Have a good day all. Going to indulge in the ecstasy of slight slurging.

Be happy, smile.

If you can't, call for a little help.

If there's no help available, just close your eyes, and wait.

The day will come, when your smile becomes pure and natural, not out of lies nor brokenness.

Dear Daddy God,

I can't stop crying.

Everyday, every night, everywhere i go, everywhere i am.

I want to be happy, but time and time again things always try to bring you down.

God i really needed Your peace yesterday so badly.

but because i couldn't immerse myself into worship, i felt so horrible. Ushering people with a smile on your face but with tears uncontrollably trickling down the cheeks is kinda contradictory?

it's ministry, it's sacrifice, but i know i am strong and still able to make the right decisions and attitudes despite all my emotions.

It's really very difficult God!

Though i've evaded past wrongs in these tests, why does the helpless feeling still linger?

There's so much to be done. My purpose, my responsibilities.

Don't let the doors of my heart close... please...

Dear God, i pray for grace over my loved ones, to give them the ability to fulfill all that is required of them.. their promises, their confessions. Let no more dangling promises hurt anyone anymore.

Keep us company oh God. every night, every day.
Don't leave, nor forsake us.

In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.