Afraid.
Haven't really got the mood to blog recently..
well yeah, ain't feeling that great.
i just realised that although i've been telling those around me not to be plastic and just be frank about how they feel etc., i ain't really doing that myself.
the smile i'm wearing is but a disguise, to just hide the things that are inside.
not that i don't wanna share, but honestly i'm afraid.. yeah.
Afraid that i'll get hurt again. though it sounds illogical in a way, but maybe you could just take it that i myself, don't trust people anymore.
though i was taught to live by faith and not by fear, somehow reality check deems this naive.
i really just wonder, if it's my fault that life is as it is now.
picking up from mistakes, starting all anew, seems to be just another mistake.
i don't understand.
i don't know why.
no matter what i've done, big or small, hasn't changed this life one bit. someone once said that change begins from your mind; i guess i need to experiment with a thousand changes before i can see a different result.
God, if there's anything i want for my birthday from You, it's a miracle that i want.
People out there, if there's anything i want for my birthday from you, it's your honesty. don't have to throw a big hoo-ha party or whatever nots, because i'm more interested in being treated as how he/she truly feels deep down inside.
i don't even need a celebration, much less to say presents. somehow all of these don't seem to matter to me.
Yes of course i want to have a close friend, buddy or whatever you guys call yours. that is beyond my control though.
A true friend, a true friend who cares. Hmm, wishful thinking, or is it not?
why don't you tell me instead.
For those who feel sick and tired of reading my blog because it's not very colourful but instead very black, i suggest that you should discontinue visiting this site, lest your day be spoilt. but bear one thing in mind, not everybody's life is as fortunate as yours. so just cherish all the sweet stuff that you have right now, put your attention on them, and keep the cynical comments to yourself. thanks ah.
People mess up not because they're evil, but because they are frail.
Even if the whole world doesn't even give a damn about your love in words or actions,
love them anyway.
Ultimately this is between you and God,
not you and them.
well yeah, ain't feeling that great.
i just realised that although i've been telling those around me not to be plastic and just be frank about how they feel etc., i ain't really doing that myself.
the smile i'm wearing is but a disguise, to just hide the things that are inside.
not that i don't wanna share, but honestly i'm afraid.. yeah.
Afraid that i'll get hurt again. though it sounds illogical in a way, but maybe you could just take it that i myself, don't trust people anymore.
though i was taught to live by faith and not by fear, somehow reality check deems this naive.
i really just wonder, if it's my fault that life is as it is now.
picking up from mistakes, starting all anew, seems to be just another mistake.
i don't understand.
i don't know why.
no matter what i've done, big or small, hasn't changed this life one bit. someone once said that change begins from your mind; i guess i need to experiment with a thousand changes before i can see a different result.
God, if there's anything i want for my birthday from You, it's a miracle that i want.
People out there, if there's anything i want for my birthday from you, it's your honesty. don't have to throw a big hoo-ha party or whatever nots, because i'm more interested in being treated as how he/she truly feels deep down inside.
i don't even need a celebration, much less to say presents. somehow all of these don't seem to matter to me.
Yes of course i want to have a close friend, buddy or whatever you guys call yours. that is beyond my control though.
A true friend, a true friend who cares. Hmm, wishful thinking, or is it not?
why don't you tell me instead.
For those who feel sick and tired of reading my blog because it's not very colourful but instead very black, i suggest that you should discontinue visiting this site, lest your day be spoilt. but bear one thing in mind, not everybody's life is as fortunate as yours. so just cherish all the sweet stuff that you have right now, put your attention on them, and keep the cynical comments to yourself. thanks ah.
People mess up not because they're evil, but because they are frail.
Even if the whole world doesn't even give a damn about your love in words or actions,
love them anyway.
Ultimately this is between you and God,
not you and them.
posted by †LeNoir™† at
12:43 AM
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